The Show Goes On....

I've decided that our theme song in 2012  will be "The show goes on" by Lupe Fiasco.  Most of the lyrics don't apply, but the last verse and the chorus pretty much sum up everything in my life at the moment and the attitude I have about moving forward...

So no matter what you been through
No matter what you into
No matter what you see when you look outside your window
Brown grass or green grass
Picket fence or barbed wire
Never ever put them down
You just lift your arms higher
Raise em till’ your arms tired
Let em’ know you’re there
That you struggling and survivin’ that you gonna persevere
Yeah, ain’t no body leavin, no body goin’ home
Even if they turn the lights out the show is goin’ on!Alright, already the show goes on
Alright, till the morning we dream so long
Anybody ever wonder, when they would see the sun up
Just remember when you come up
The show goes on!
Alright, already the show goes on

They may very well turn the lights out.  That happens when you haven't seen a pay check in two months....but the show will go on. Life will go on. We will keep putting one foot in front of the other even when we get tired and want to give up.  Why? Not because we want to, but because the alternative is unacceptable.

There are days when the blessings are hard to see. But they are there.  Sure, I may be tired of mana, but thank God its there!  Several people have helped us in the past few months and that (along with a small and now-depleated savings account) has allowed us to stay afloat and maintain the things necessary: car, phone etc. to continue looking for work.  To each one of them, I send sincere thanks. At the moment, unemployment has looked over the additional info we sent them to prove we had wages (since our company didn't have to report them quarterly) and then has decided to deny us both because we "worked at a non profit organization with fewer than 4 employees".  In Florida a company meeting that criteria isn't required to pay in and so unemployment says we can't cash in now that we are laid off. Strange...I paid taxes out of those pay checks that I now "can't count" as wages! I am appealing but I don't know if it will yield any fruit. Lets just say I'm not holding my breath! ;)

Evangeline is doing well since her shunt surgery.  Though there have been a few issues with tummy troubles, they are minor and the surgery its self she is recovering from in her typical amazing fashion. It was a blessing for both of us to be able to be there with her in the hospital, which wouldn't have happened if we'd been working- so there is that too.... Not to mention the fact that medicaid, lovely medicaid, has ensured that she gets the best care even though we would otherwise have no way to pay.

I have had a couple of call backs for jobs and so things are stirring. Hopefully I will secure something soon. Until then .... "Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore have I set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame." Isaiah 50:7