Valuable

With only 4 days to go till I meet my daughter, I suppose it's natural that I have been thinking back on my pregnancy experience. If my pregnancy had a theme song, it would have to be "Roller Coaster of Love" by the Red Hot Chili Peppers. lol.  It was hard at some points, easy in others, and after all is said and done, it was all for her. So, in all my retrospection, I wrote her a letter: something I plan to share with her when she starts nudging near those awkward teenage years...just a little something explaining  what she means to me, what her value really is.

Evangeline:

I am sure baby that you know by now, that daddy and I have taught you, that the best things in life are never free. Things that are easy to come by... are well, cheap at best.  And now that you are older, I want you to understand something about babies. I think any pregnant lady pays a price for the baby in her belly. That's what makes the baby so valuable. When I was pregnant with you, after they told me about your boo-boo (yes, I still call it that!), I would sit and talk with you, rubbing my belly, feeling waves of sorrow and fear for you because there was so much I still did not understand then. But those moments made me realize exactly what you are worth to me!  I paid for you with buckets of tears. I paid in piles of worry. And yes, on ultrasound days, I even paid in smiles, smiles so big they hurt my cheeks! But I want you to understand something very, very important. When I think of what I paid for you, I feel a little guilty. I feel sneaky like I've somehow gotten away with something. I feel like this because well...you are a bargain, my love. I would have paid so very much more! I loved you in my belly. I will love you when I meet you. As you grow, I'll love you when you're naughty. I'll love you when you make the right choices. I will love you to the height and breadth of forever because I know the truth about you. I know who you are. I know your worth. You have great value. To me, to daddy, to Jesus. I hope with all my heart you always know that about yourself. That your value has nothing to do with what you have done in this world, no matter how big or small you may sometimes feel. Your value eclipses such petty things and is rooted in the very nature of who you are. You are my daughter. You are God's child. You are daddy's baby girl. You were created with a purpose and you are greatly loved. In your successes and in your failures, in your triumph and your heartache, you must remember this above all things. You must know your own value. Never give the pearls of your heart to pigs who won't know their worth. Never sell yourself short by sharing your kisses or your body with a boy who doesn't understand the honor you offer him. You are no cheap glass bauble!! You are a diamond. You cannot be tarnished, chipped or broken; your value never diminishes. You are Evangeline Grace Kugler. This you must always remember.

Love,

Mom


"What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? " Romans 8:31-32